BUT....
I've come across a predicament. There is no emotion. I don't FEEL anything right now... I havn't for a while. I always thought the worst thing was feeling sad or mad, but this... this numbness is something I don't know how to deal with. I'm having a hard time even writing about it, because there's just... nothing.
I believe, drawing near to the end of hell, I mean winter, that it is to blame. Surprise, surprise... I know. But really, this winter has lasted forever, and with it, a record amount of snow, and at piercingly frigid temps. So along with the chilling of the outdoors, always seems to come the chilling of my soul. I think it has finally put me into a coma... an "I don't give a crap about anything anymore" coma.
So here I waste away, desperately awaiting the arrival of my dear companion, Spring, to thaw my heart of ice while I try to put a fake smile on my face. Her gentle, fragrant breeze with soft, green grass adorned by petals of every color, and soothing rains, followed by warm kisses from the sun's glowing rays will be here soon, along with my most cherished gift of all, she brings me every year... my passion, the light against the dark... my hope and reason. I try to make myself forget that in a short while, it will all slip away once again before I will ever be ready, allowing the cycle to keep rolling on, rolling away with my happy, with my joy, and with my ability to feel.
