I think I could seriously go lay in my bed right now, and be completely passed out cold in 3 minutes flat, and sleep until 3. I won't complain that I worked til 1:30 last night, because I need the money desperately, so I'm thankful I have enough work to keep me busy for a full shift, but let me tell you, having to be up at 6:30 sucks. I don't know how people can regularly function on 4 hours of sleep, that's insane... I'm pretty sure I require at least 9 to be a human and not a zombie in the morning.
Well, I've gotten a good amount of feedback on my last blog, (Thank you everyone who took some time to give me advice!) I still haven't figured out what to do, so I think I'm just going to sit on it for a while. I'm sure the answer I'm looking for will come to me after spending some time in prayer. I'm not going to worry about it. Worrying is such a waste of time.
"Do not Worry. Learn to pray about everything. Give thanks to God as you ask Him for what you need. The peace of God is much greater than the human mind can understand. This peace will keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus."
Philippians 4:6-7
"We know that God makes all things work together for the good of those who love Him and are chosen to be a part of His plan." Romans 8:28
What a wake up call, a realization of how foolish, selfish, and LUCKY I am. I have a husband, he has a job, I have a job, we have two beautiful, healthy children, a spacious, sturdy house over our head, a furnace to keep the house warm, beds, plenty of clothes and shoes, food, water, at least one working car, a huge family who loves us, many friends, good grief, I could go on with this list for hours, literally. It's a humbling and sobering experience to realize how silly the things are that I am worrying about compared to what millions of others are suffering every single second.
No more sulking in worry and self pity, it really is honestly shameful. Doesn't my worrying show a lack of faith in my God's love for me? How much more satisfying will my life be when troubles come, and I choose instead to be joyful and thankful for all of my blessings!
